spinning my Life's taLe

i really really am not ready to leave this damned country. i do not care how many more coup de tats occur or if a civil war should erupt how much longer the president stays. all i know is i want to finish my degree before i stay in the states. i doubt that anything my mom would tell me over the vacation would change my mind. my friends and dad could attest to my being stubborn when i really want something. i just hope i could make mom see how important it is for me to come home. i wouldn't want to go on a guilt trip on the way home.

if only i could stretch the term longer! i'd go out with everyone that i could go out with just to be sure that i've bonded with them enough. aww, my amoebas. they asked me during our last corporate meeting on the final decision regarding the US thingie. all i said was that nothing is final.

i just can't miss next term. and the term after that. grr. i really pray that the re-entry permit thingie is for real and could help me through this.

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i really want to tell you things which would probably shock you.. but then again, maybe not. for once in my life, i'm truly at loss for words. i wish i could put the thoughts into words but everytime i try, the words just cower back into nothingness.

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my dad wants the four of us (him plus us three) to have some sort of heart-to-heart talk before the three of us left for the US. i smell cryfest coming up.

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my beloved stardust is at some phone repair shop. she got some virus from my laptop. ugh. she's going to be there for about 3 days. the horror. at least i have my old phone which isn't that old naman, haha! my goodness talaga. i'm going to kill whomever said that macs are virus-free. pfft.