spinning my Life's taLe

when something bad happens to me, something that affected me greatly, i always end up writing about it. net or paper, it's the same for me, as long as i let it out.

i was a wreck while waiting to talk to my prodman prof. i knew how strict he was and how sharp his tongue can get. this morning, i talked to him and when i was talking to him, he was actually nice. he just pointed out that there was a fault on my part and i kept on nodding and saying yes because i knew that i really caused this on myself. he also said that he was happy to see that i smiling - he said that meant that i had let the matter go, that i had accepted it in my heart that i was not to take prodman anymore. and so i thanked him and let myself out of the room. i was at peace because everything was okay again.

but when the amoebas talked to me after their prodman, my fears returned.
"hay naku ching, may favorite prof ka na."
"grabe, ang evil evil niya!"
"kung anu-ano pinagsasabi!"
of course, i asked what they meant.
"ay naku mamaya na after ng fab-u-man quiz, ang sama talaga niya!"

my friends were true to their word. they were quite vague because they didn't give me the blow-by-blow replay but i got the idea. apparently, as soon as i was out of earshot, that man said that he should have been shouting at me. it was all my fault daw. he even shared his OPINION with the WHOLE CLASS that i was lying about being enrolled in his class.

firstly, why on earth would i waste my time in his prodman class, waking up at 6:30 MWF mornings if i was not enrolled in his damned class? hello, seriously!
for another, why would i lie about something like that? i don't know where he gets his ideas but has anyone really thought about lying about the classes s/he is enrolled in?! eh we all know how sophisticated naman the la salle system, there's little NO chance you'll trick it. hello talaga.
lastly, he has a class list he generated from the very same la salle system that told him not to accept me in his class. he got that list a week after class started. and my name is on the list. i know because that's what he uses to take attendance. hello uli, isn't that proof enough that i did enroll in his class?
lastly, i showed him my EAF kanina. and PRODMAN K35 MWF 0920-1020 L331 BOLINAO was typed there.

i really respected that man. but that was just unforgivable. i now believe that you really can't teach an old dog new tricks. he's caged in this belief that i out to cheat the la salle system. the old man was blinded by his own pride that he knew students too well that he cannot be wrong about us.

but he was. he is.

i couldn't let it just go kanina. i cried to my friends. it was frustrating to be accused of something, and that it be announced to a whole lot of people.. and i cannot even defend myself. that was what i hated most - the feeling of defeat. i knew i was right but i cannot do anything with what i know. then pats told me something that almost made me cry again for a completely different reason:
"hay naku, kung hindi lang talaga niya ako sisigawan, sinabi ko na sa kanya na di mo naman kasalanan yun."

i didn't say anything to that. i didn't need to. it was then that i realized that it didn't matter what the other 30+ people believed. it does not matter because i have my friends and they know that truth.

thanks guys. the cry was worth it. :P

and to you mister, i'll see you next term i guess. wahaha!