spinning my Life's taLe

i just spent the last day (two days?) hopping on and off planes and seeing airports. my mom paid agents to take care of us and our papers while we go around the various airports. the one from NAIA is a lasallian through and through - GH then taft. the one from nagoya, japan is the female version of billy martin of good charlotte. i was like staring at her because i couldn't figure out why she looked so familiar then i almost burst out laughing when i realized whom she looked like. then we got stuck on the plane for about 11 hours before we touched down in detroit. another agent met us and we got through the immigration okay. the agent sent us to the UM (unaccompanied minors) room where there was free snacks. i was in junk food heaven, haha! another agent got us to the plane an hour later and after about two hours, we were in baltimore!

ooh, i just remembered: my sisters and i were supposed to be seated at the economy seats through every plane ride. however, the plane crew were so nice that they transferred us to the world business class just because. the seats were looove - personal monitors for movies of our choice, super alaga kami, then super spacious. yum.

i so miss the philippines already. my dad sounded teary over the phone but so was i, hahaha! and him. and PNK. and la salle. rar. mom checked our passports and when she saw what was nakastamp there, she also said na mukha ngang makakauwi kami agad. at least that made me a bit happier. sana nga. i cannot stay here. it's fun shopping for clothes and seeing new places but it's so damn cold. i might go back na lang on summers. i can't believe it but they can wear sleeveless pala here on summer. kewl. i thought this was like snowland. people, walang snow here! well, wala pa. sa detroit meron. i want to touch snow. fall, please please please!

ps: i am doing this via the wifi powers of some JOSH guy. thank goodness for free things. ;)

sisters are blessings.
they're always good listeners..
especially when you're already breaking down.

i vowed that i was going to be strong about this.
apparently, i can't do it.
this is going to take more than chocolate bars,
a cry fest,
and time away from him.

do not ask me why this is happening to me
because i cannot explain it myself.
it's only been a month
and already,
i'm here, semi-damaged.

and you know what sucks the most?
that it could have been something wonderful
if only i am not what i am..
or he isn't what he is.

sana alien na lang pala kami.
charing.

seriously,
why do i put myself through this?

if only you weren't so nice,
so concerned,
so thoughtful,
so.. sweet,
so open to me,
so easy to talk to,
and very accepting of my quirks..
then maybe i wouldn't like you so much.

i wish i could just pack you in my luggage
and
take you with me.
then maybe we can just forget what everyone says
and
do what we want.

pero asa.
masyado kasi tayong mabait na mga bata..
at isa pa, hindi ka 'ata kasya sa maleta ko. ;)

the worst thing about this?
i can't even EAT.
i somehow lost my appetite along the way.
sigh.

*dearies, ume-emo lang nang wala sa lugar. na medyo kailangan ko lang talaga magsalita because as of now, i'm not very nice to talk to. nawawala brain ko. puro mata ko lang at ilong nagfufunction.*

stardust is on the verge of dying. this is the third time that she's conked out on me. the repair guy is going to be a very rich man. seriously.

i remember the first time i saw this phone online, i fell in love with it. i swore to get it as soon as they have it na in the philippines. and i did get it ASAP. i find it funny that everytime someone asks me "anong meron sa phone na 'yan at binili mo?" i couldn't say anything that's so special about it that drove me to but it. just that it's pink. not hot pink, but powder/pale/light pink.

so now i'm deciding what pink phone to buy next. only two options so far:

nokia 6120


and

nokia n73


i know, something's wrong with me. nag-iisip bata na naman ako kung kailan matanda na ako. hahaha!

take your pick:
clandestine industries
designed (and worn) by pete wentz of fall out boy

or

level 27
designed (and worn) by billy martin of good charlotte

?

i am neither punk or emo.. i think. but i so admire both of the bands and most especially both of the guys since i deem them as mega- and multi-talented people. and since i'm moving nearer them, i am thinking of which brand to splurge on first. the bats, hoodies, and baby tees are all drool-worthy.. for me, at least. wah, super hearts!

i have been sifting through the net for hours. i am such a nerd.

LEVEL 27
CLNDSTN